Mothers

To all mothers who know Pains and Joys of Motherhood.

I know some of the pains of being a mother, and I most definately know the Joy.

I know what it is like to feed a baby when it hurts and you feel like giving up, and I know what it is like to wake up a baby in the middle of the night just to hold him, feed him and listen to him. Holding them while they sleep just because I don't want to put them down. I love to "nuggle" as Jack says.

Before I was a mom I had never been, pooped on, pee'd on, thrown up on, and been covered in my child's blood. I have held Jacob while he has had seizures and looked into his face, Aiden while he had his finger stitched together twice, and Jack as he had 15+ stiches on his face.

Before I was a Mom I never tripped over toys or forgot what I was going to say. I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous. I slept all night...!!! Before I was a Mom I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests. Or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never stayed up into the late hours, watching over them and making sure they were okay.

I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom. Before I was a Mom -I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom. I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom.